Memories of My Dad

Published March 31, 2018 by pink sapphire

I miss my dad.

I wished I had spent better quality time with him before he was gone forever.

My father loved me. He would buy me sweets that I asked for when he came home at night. I had too much of it that it resulted in many tooth cavities and the death of one of my front tooth.

He would buy us toys, balls, badminton rackets, bicycles, pets and bring us for adventure trips at the marshlands next to our dwelling place.

He also loved to buy supper home at night. We liked the fried hor fan a lot. It came wrapped in some dried leaves that gave it a special  flavour.

I am really thankful to him for a wonderful childhood.

But as I grew up, I became critical of him because of his smoking habit. I really hated the smoke. I was angry with him for not considering our health and only focused on his own enjoyment.

Then one day, when he was chronically ill, my friend came with me to visit him in the hospital. Later, my friend told me that my dad had spoken well of me to her. I was so touched.

My deepest regret was not being able to see him again before he passed away at the critical ward. He had a heart attack after surgery. He was to have the surgery in the morning to open up a hole in his neck so that he could breathe. The rest of the family went in the morning to see him. I didn’t. I had a class. I thought that since the rest go in the morning, I would go in the afternoon.  I didn’t  expect that he couldn’t make it through after the surgery.

I regretted it very much. I am still very sad whenver I think about it now.





Snippets of Park Yuchun in the Eyes of His Stylist

Published August 21, 2016 by pink sapphire

Some time ago I came across a translated article about Yuchun written by his Japanese stylist during his days in TVXQ.

And I miss him so much recently that I went back to read it again. It contains heartwarming and touching little stories about Yuchun with his members in TVXQ.

From the article, one can see that they, TVXQ as a group, had really been through lmuch sweat and tears to achieve success. The sense of “us” as a unit was very strong.

In the eyes of the author, Yuchun is a kind, caring, fun-loving and playful boy with the most beautiful and warm smile. A free spirit who likes to act childish like a spoiled child, the author could not get angry with him. He really likes Yuchun a lot and is charmed by both his smiles and tears.

YC really kind and cared a lot for his members as well as those around him.

One day, while waiting for the boys to complete their photo-shooting, the author fell asleep.  When he woke up suddenly, he found that YC had covered him with his jacket and was sitting quietly nearby waiting for him. He even gestured the author that he could go on with his nap as there was still some time to spare.

There was also a time, a staff had left behind one of their stage costumes at the previous venue and they had not time to go back to retrieve it. As the PD severely scolded the staff for this mistake, YC risked incurring the wrath of the PD,  went up to the him to speak up for the staff and suggested an improvisation to their costumes to solve the problem.

In the article, there were quite a bit of stories describing YC’s interactions with his members. Some of the stories are quite heart wrenching. In general, YC is very playful and likes to play around with others. He liked to tease JS with words and expose his unflattering secrets; ridicule CM and complain that he likes to act big (as CM is the youngest among them); bully JJ and complain that he nags; and sometimes even play a joke on YH. But he is also the most warm and caring person to his members.

One day, JS and CM were kind of fighting over the food. He purposely thwarted JS by pushing him away so that CM got the food. But while JS was complaining, he quietly placed his food on JS’s plate.

At other times, when the staff forgot to buy two portions of food for CM, YC would complained that he had too much rice in his plate and forcibly passed most of his food to CM and then ran far far away.

There was once they had to eat cup noodles for lunch. JS was busy helping JJ take photos that he forgot about his noodles and it became soggy. JS was unhappy and was complaining that it was awful to eat. JJ wanted to pass him his but JS refused. Then suddenly, YC grabbed over JS’s cup of noodles and quickly gobbled down half of it. Before JS started to make an issue over it, he quickly handed over his cup of noodles to JS as compensation. Then he said that he had lost his appetite  and wanted to have home-made food at home for compensation.

Actually, YC was quite particular about his food. There was once when the author found YC upset over his food when certain condiments were not added to his food. Later he learned from JS that YC was very particular about food.

They often play games together and the losers were always punished. YC would always use the least strength to hit the other members saying that it hurt to hit hard, even though the others would hit him hard.

YH appeared often and he cared much for YC as the leader and YC respected him a lot. For instance, whenever the above scenario happened, YH would quietly asked their manager to buy some food during the following shooting.

One day, YC had to record a variety show in cold weather where participants might have get into water. As his partner was a senior, he insisted that he would be the one to go into the water. He went twice into the water and was shivering badly when he got out from it. YH went into the water once and when he saw YC shivering at the side even with a thick down blanket over him, he went over to hug him. But it did not help. YC could not even hold the warm water that JS had passed into his hands. In the end, YH brought him into the car to warm him up with the car heater.

I can imagine how much betrayed and heartbroken he must have felt when the group broke up in 2009. TVXQ meant almost everything to him.

Each of the boys have their own stylist. Initially, the stylists were like working on an ad-hoc basis. But later they were contracted and they followed them as they travelled between South Korea and Japan.

Most of YC’s hairstyles are his ideas. His stylist, the author, trusted his artistic sense of style. One day, the stylists were discussing about JJ and how he could take different hairstyles. Then YC’s stylist asked whether JJ could take a head of curls? They all could not reply. The author was pleased because YC had just suggested it to him earlier and turned up with curls the next day.

There were also other incidents or fun facts that were mentioned. Like even when they were most popular artistes themselves then, they acted just like us, the ordinary fans, towards their favourite artistes. Those who want to know more can read the original translated article in Baidu Micky Bar which is in Chinese.

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My Trip to My Grandparents’ Hometown – Part 2: A Cruise Down the Pearl River

Published August 3, 2015 by pink sapphire

After the walk around the city and the old Beijing Street, we met up again with our second cousin who lives in Guangzhou.

He and his wife, together with their grandson, brought us to the banks of Pearl River at night.


There we took a cruise down the river.


The Guangzhou Suspension bridge is spectacular to behold.


On both sides of the river, the buildings were all brightly lit, adding to the beauty of the summer night.


On one side of the river is actually a small island within the river.


The Guangzhou Tower is beautiful sight at night as it is brightly lit with multi-colours.


The cruise boat also went under the bridge linking the island to the city.


It was a wonderful and enjoyable evening together as we enjoyed the lights and night breeze.

My Trip to My Grandparents’ Hometown – Part 1: A Glimpse into the Past

Published August 2, 2015 by pink sapphire

I had always wanted to visit my grandparents’ hometown in Guangzhou as my father had spent a fair bit of his adult life there. As I was visiting the city in June last year, I had decided to make a trip to the village as well to find out more about my father’s life there. I managed to persuade my sisters to join me and so the three of us met there separately as we have different schedules.

We managed to contact one of our relatives who is living in the city there. He has retired and would be free to bring us around. We met him that afternoon after I had checked into the hotel with my sister.

The next morning, when my second sister arrived, we went out on our own to tour the city. We went to the Nanyue King Museum but it was closed on Monday! So we just walked around the streets and came to the old Beijing Street. There I found history before my eyes!


Apparently, Beijing street had existed since ancient times. Every few dynasties, they resurfaced the road.


So when the top layers were removed, you can see the ancient street below .


Ming Dynasty road surface.

Once along this street, ancient Chinese had walked on it in their everyday lives.  It gave a very special feeling like I was then connected to the long past in history.

Song Dynasty Road Surface

The sky and trees are reflections from the glass surface that protects the relics below.


Now, Beijing Street is closed to traffic and it became a shopping street.

Though we were tired from all the walking, it had been a very interesting day for us.

[FANCAM + TRANS] 141204 Yuchun’s acceptance speech at the 15th Busan Film Critics Awards Ceremony

Published December 4, 2014 by pink sapphire



Yes, thank you.
Uhhh…yes…thank you
Last year, I really wanted to try out acting. There were much thoughts about about passionately wanting to try it out. At the same time, I had cold feet but I “met” a production now known as Haemoo.

At that time, I saw Director Shim Sungbo in the office for the first time and during that time I seemed to have gained a lot of courage while filming with all the staff and seniors. Actually, I’ve watched Haemoo several times even after it had finished showing and I utterly do not fancy thoughts like “You’ve done really well.” Also, even after Haemoo had passed, there was actually small trail of intimidation/fear.

That’s why I just stayed at home and did not go out. Now, I’m only watching movies while staying at home. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving me…

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